The Journey: Day 20 – The Ups and Downs

The biggest question I am asked of people who know about my Journey into veganism is are you still vegan? My reply is, yes of course. Just not 100% of the time. To be honest with you, I want and NEED to be honest, this is the toughest change I have ever made in my life. I haven’t been keeping a diary of my food intake, but I can say at least 5 times in the past 15 days I have eaten dairy and/or chicken.

Writing about this now, I am trying to decide if I made those choices out of weakness or perhaps my addiction got the better of me. The worst of it was one trip to Zabbas where I ordered a chicken burrito with EXTRA chicken, cheese and sour cream. It tasted SOOOO good going down, but afterwards the guilt set in. Other times I have chosen to eat dairy/chicken include a couple of trips to Taco Bell for grilled chicken tacos with cheese and bean burritos.

While it is important to report on areas of weakness I also want to share the success I have achieved. In the past 20 days I have not had ONE slice of pizza, zero soda, zero ice cream, zero chips, zero burgers… in fact I would estimate about 85% of the food I have consumed is either pure vegan or pretty darn close. In fact I was able to make one dish from scratch: whole wheat pasta with natural spaghetti sauce, mushrooms, onions and peppers that tasted AMAZING. It is very cheap, takes about 12 minutes to construct and is very filling. Now I just need to find and add a few more vegan recipes to my arsenal.

This is where I can use your help!

Do you have an amazing vegan recipe you would like to share with me? If so, post it in the comments below and I will give it a whirl. I am not a big fan of TOFU so hopefully you can avoid posting recipes with TOFU.

Lastly I want to talk about my exercise routine, which for 16 of the 20 days was 20 minutes on the elliptical machine. Early on I missed one day, then the last three days I have completely slacked. Tomorrow is my day off and I WILL get back on the horse.

When I started I was 330 lbs and I do not plan to weigh myself again until November 4th. What I can report is that my clothing feels looser and people are noticing a change. So things are progressing in the right direction.

Sometimes I just want to give up this whole thing and go back to eating meat and dairy, but what my food addiction never counted on was my long history of pornography addiction. When you gain control over an addiction, you begin to learn how you respond in certain circumstances… and this desire to run back to meat is no different than the desire to look at other women with lust. My flesh is being starved of the things it loves and it is not happy about it.

I will never allow my flesh to rule my life ever again.

Want to read more about My Journey? This is where it all began…



The Journey: Day 5 – My First Week Vegan

Five days ago on October 2nd, 2018 I posted an article about my food addiction. That day was set as my new sobriety date and it has been challenging, difficult and exciting these past few days. I just wanted to take a moment to update you on what I call “The Journey”.

I cannot believe I am about to say this, but I am FIVE DAYS into being VEGAN. This is INSANE. My younger self would not stop laughing if he heard this, and yet here I am. Take a look at the top shelf of my refrigerator! This bad boy was stocked with Pepsi, bacon and Little Debbie Snack cakes this time a week ago.


I found a new friend while blogging named Ryan Callahan who was featured in Fellowship Friday #16. He wrote me a long heart felt letter after he read about my food addiction and offered great insight and tips… including some food products I might enjoy. I took your advice on the Earth Balance Ryan, good STUFF! Ryan doesn’t know this but God sent him to me that day. The night before I was praying heavily that God would help transform my tastes… to help me enjoy the healthy foods by body needed. That is precisely what Ryan had gone through and the Lord provided. Amen.

Now let’s recap the past 5 days of The Journey

My starting weight was 330 pounds. My destination is 220… which I want to reach within 12 months. As a short term objective, I plan to lose 30 pounds by November 1st, 2018. Every Thursday I meet with an addictions support group at my church when I am not working… and they have all agreed to be accountability partners with me.

My wife is my primary accountability partner and nutritional mentor. She has been guiding me and helping me with meals. As I stated in my article I am going cold turkey on nearly everything I used to consume, and starting from scratch. My diet is currently completely plant based, with little if any processed foods. If a package is required for my food I look for ingredient lists with three or four items max. Some times I cannot avoid items with more stuff, but it has been rare.

Most days I have not had many hunger pains, but I have MAJOR compulsions to pull into drive-thrus which are on every corner in the city I live. There have also been headaches and moments of withdrawal type symptoms.

As far as workouts I am using an elliptical machine, borrowed from a church brother, seven days a week, 20 minutes per session. Next week I plan to meet with my friend Johnny for a boxing workout. As time progresses I will be adding strength and conditioning exercises to my weekly routine. My body is really out of shape and I have led an inactive lifestyle for decades so I am sloooowwwwlly getting my body used to working out.

Next week I plan to get some blood work done to measure my cholesterol and other health indicators to see where I am really at… I will post that information when I have it.

Thank you for following me along The Journey… I am looking forward to tomorrow with excitement. Soon I will create a special section on this site for updates… but for now, it’s time to rest. Good night.